August 19, 2009

  • Romantic Not-So-Comedies

    I sat down today in front of my computer after work. I spent time on Facebook, cehcked my email accounts, did some homework, ate dinner, and played Guild Wars. After that, I received a call from Asha asking how I was and what I was up to. It was completely unexpected, but nice considering my recent heartaching. The plans we made are something I am definitely looking forward to (especially to avoid being in this apartment by myself all of the time). I called my father and talked about how I was feeling (which at the time was pretty rotten and lonely). Being alone and feeling alone are two different things entirely...

    After realizing there was nothing left for me to possibly do on Facebook, I figured I might watch a movie. I got all the way through Prince Caspian and was still in the mood for a movie, so I surfed Netflix until I found the perfect movie: Smart People. I had started watching it a week or so ago, and I thought I might finish it off or re-start it so that I had something to take up some time. Throughout the whole film, I just felt sad and sadder. I went through every bit of the movie feeling like I understood what they were feeling, each of the characters. I felt like I had little parts of me that related to each of the characters, espeically the wanting to break out and be yourself, even when no one else is around to see it. At the end, I just remember feeling so... nostalgic. I have been thinking and thinking for another word, but every time I consider words, I just come back to nostalgia.
    Isn't it interesting how romantic comedies just leave you feeling the same way? All of these romance-drama-comedy films just follow a cookie-cutter plot with a different moral or attitude. Some are quirky and some are cute. Others are depressing or justneutral and flat.
    I had a very neutral and flat day today. It all began with no sleep, a lot of tears, an early wakeup, a rush out fo the house, a depressing car ride, and the most beautiful "goodbye" I have ever experienced. Today was nostalgia day.
    Ever feel like you just have those days? How do you unwind from your BLAH days?